tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34418044.post908500043636727850..comments2023-08-04T03:59:39.958-06:00Comments on Deutschland: My thoughts exactlyTishahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02795061370423701020noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34418044.post-55207411270267319132011-05-22T01:10:35.523-06:002011-05-22T01:10:35.523-06:00"I wanted to escape this life we had willingl..."I wanted to escape this life we had willingly chosen, which made the guilt even greater."<br /><br />so true. There's a tremendous amount of guilt over the desire to escape and pressure to keep quiet about the struggles...after all, we advocated and raised over 35,000.00 from friends and community for our little girl-so how would this regret, incompetence, and grief I feel (and brought on myself)appear? I've cried "I used to be a good mom" many times over since July, when we brought our daughter home. There's a poem I memorized in high school..and I can't remember it all, but a line keeps coming to mind. The poem's called "Wait" and the line goes something like..."Wait, you say wait..my indignant reply. I need to know answers; I need to know why. Is your hand shortened or have you not heard? something something something-I'm claiming your Word." I'm feeling a bit indignant myself right now. I wanted so badly to be a good mom to both my daughters. But for now I'm failing.Linnethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17735504463528867147noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34418044.post-77126744539340522042011-04-07T15:58:30.239-06:002011-04-07T15:58:30.239-06:00We're waiting for our Embassy pick up date... ...We're waiting for our Embassy pick up date... I like to read your blog because you're honest. Thanks :)Dontctrlmehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17300132862803299781noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34418044.post-77047443695419221742011-04-05T22:48:44.042-06:002011-04-05T22:48:44.042-06:00Wow, what a powerful article. I'm glad I read ...Wow, what a powerful article. I'm glad I read it.Ice Cream Ladyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13631217352495104006noreply@blogger.com