Spring break....fun?

Oh my. In an effort to make Jayla's first official spring break (as a school student) fun, we've had a lot planned. I failed to realize keeping pace with this schedule would make for a not-so-fun spring break mom. Bob is working late again tonight, and especially in the evenings, this is really a job for 2 adults, and 4 hands. Evenings are Clover's needy time, and as I attend to her, Stryder is playing on the top bunk, smearing toothpaste, dumping puzzles out, helping himself to cereal, biting his siblings, and the laundry is sitting in clean piles staring at me, and the didn't-make-it-to-their-mouth dinner food is in the floor waiting to be swept....while O and T are fighting like cats and dogs....and I'm stuck sitting, feeding, unable to move...feeling helpless and overwhelmed....worn out by the busy schedule this week.

Tonight, in my "I can not take ONE more SINGLE mess, scream, need" mood, I sat (sprawled out) on the floor to regroup (daydream that I was on a tropical island... alone) and I happened to mention to the children that I was sorry they had such a crappy (yes, I know, I should not use words like that, add it to my 'I'm a crappy mom' list) mom, which spurred a discussion (argument) between Onyx and Tyden. Onyx rubbing my shoulder saying "It's okay, you're not a crappy mom" and Tyden telling Onyx in his 3 year old voice "yes she is. If she says she is a cwappy mom, she is a cwappy mom. Don't argue wiff mom Onyx." I must agree with you Tyden, for parts of today I was definitely a cwappy mom. I am sorry about that. I will try really hard to be a better mom tomorrow. Please forgive me and please wipe all days like today from your memory. Just pretend they never happened, ok? I love you guys so much.