I can think of about 1,000 things I would like to blog about....thoughts running through my mind that I wouldn't mind typing out, but I just don't seem to have enough time. I do have moments. A moment here to check in and read a blog, a moment there to post a comment...a stop by to see if I have an e mail worth reading....I 'pop by' the computer, then I must be off again, about the business of the day and the kids. I feel as if I'm in a constant pull/push. How shall I spend my quickly vanishing moments and days? As I dress Clover in Jayla's old clothes, I am deeply aware of the fleeting nature and the value of this precious time in my life. However, everywhere I look there is something I should be attending to. Finding a proper balance of meeting the physical needs in the home and making sure I'm devoting time to connect on a heart to heart level with the children seems to be a goal I never feel as if I have accomplished. Maybe that is an emotion common to all moms. Maybe having more kids makes it worse. Maybe I should get out more often and stop thinking about all this so much : ) (Sidenote: I've been seriously into the sideways smiley lately. I don't know what's gotten into me :-) :-) :-) At the end of most days recently, I feel as if I should have/could have made wiser choices. So, I resolve I will do better, then I wind up doing the next day as I did the day before.....
Here are some picutres of my sunshine. You should smell her when she gets out of the bath. I am really going to miss that when my baby is no longer a baby.
*Health Update*
Stryder had 4 eruptions, and seems to be better. No other kids down, at least not yet. Praising God for that.
Jayla is feeling worse today. They said that would happen. As it scabs, her throat gets more sore. She slept most of the morning and is resisting eating and drinking. But, at mom's urging, she will get a little down every few hours.
Off now to do something and wish I had done something else :)
5 comments:
I understand what you are saying. I find that I'm over come with guilt because I do what I shouldn't do and then I don't do what I should. I think the apostle Paul talked about this problem, so you're definitely not alone. I never thought about it this way though, I always thought about it as doing good or bad, but you can do good things that aren't the top priority and lose yourself to unnecessary good deeds, while dropping the ball on the necessary. It is really hard sometimes to determine what is truly necessary and then choosing to do it. I really struggle with the choosing part, since sometimes I'd just rather not deal with the necessary.
Anyway, long comment to say, I hear what you're saying! I probably should have been cleaning up after my children instead of leaving this comment...but I guess this was my choice. Haha. Thanks for thinking on line. It helps me to hear from others with the same struggles and triumphs.
oooo, yea, I so feel this...every day and most days, all day.
I want, so desperately to make every moment count to make every moment glorify Christ to make every moment a lasting memory for His glory
I am in constant prayer about it, it seems....
nice to know I'm so not alone!
Been thinking of your family. Hope all are well soon. Love this post. Thanks for keeping life so "real"
I am sorry you are in the sicky daze. I will pray for comfort.
I just love that Clover. What a pretty baby girl....(i wanna kiss you face!)
love ya
I think I could smell that clean baby scent through the computer. I used to nuzzle their necks and kiss them all over! After bath and freshly into PJ's was our favorite time when my kids were tiny. We'd all pile into my bed and read bedtime stories until almost everyone was asleep (except me!) Such sweet times, and my heart aches sometimes to get them back. My daughter is 14, almost 15. It hit me HARD a few weeks ago that in about 4 years, she is off to college. Gone.. on her own.. independent.. it will never be the same again. My heart is conflicted because I know that is the natural progression of things.. how it is supposed to be and how I should want it to be.. but I am already hearbroken thinking about it. Every single time (not kidding) that the song "Ready, Set, Don't Go" by Billy Ray and Miley Cyrus comes on the radio, I bawl. The words they say are gut wrenching. I don't know if you have ever heard it, but pull out your hankies. It is a wonderful song.
I feel for you.. you and I are going through the same feelings. I saw that you visited my Desitin moment at Target the other day. Sometimes we are painfully aware of how precious the gifts that God gave us are, but I believe that it makes us better Mother's, Wives, Daughter's and Friends. Hang in there my friend, squeeze everyone a little tighter and smile! You've been blessed!
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