I even bought new pants.

At Old Navy! Not Goodwill! Or Salvation Army! (I am kind of short. It is not always easy to find pants at thrift stores that fit me. It takes a while to search and try on options. I was also *short* on time. So I went straight to Old Navy. Out of character! But I found 2 pairs of really cute pants on clearance for $8.99 a piece. Yippee!)

This was due to the fact I don't really ever need to "dress." Our church is casual (jeans) and yoga type pants is my daily uniform around the house.

Since I was going to a *real live* conference,  I thought it best to not wear jeans. Or yoga pants.

And, I packed. Yes, already. On Sunday. To leave on Wednesday. Because I'm a dork cool like that.

I signed up for the lunch to meet her. I just LOVE her. So, so much. Do you read her blog? You really should. (Not that I would ever want to tell you what to do. :) You will love her too! I just know it!

Then, I found out this morning that a job my husband had on hold indefinitely was reinstated for rush completion. Starting WEDNESDAY. (The day we were leaving.)

He was assuring me it was fine. He would find a replacement, etc. He could still get the time off for me to go.

But it was weighing on him. I could tell. He was going to be distracted and rushed and concerned about missing work.

I understand the position he is in, pressure from work, pressure from home, providing for a large family, children with needs, a wife with needs, an employer with needs, a house with needs, vehicles with needs. Many people to accommodate and please. Plenty of stress from all sides.

I told him I would pass on the conference. It was no problem. It was such short notice anyway and he was very kind to try his best to make it work. Another time when we've got more time to plan, perhaps I will do something else, get away for a couple of days, with the ladies.

I am not going to Austin after all. Yes, I am disappointed. For several reasons. For me, it was an unusual, out of the ordinary, opportunity. I was really excited about it.

"Learning to deal with disappointment is part of life. Everyone experiences it from time to time." That's what I say to my kids.
So, I'm telling myself today, "Tisha, learning to deal with disappointment is part of life. Everyone experiences it from time to time." Then I answer myself, "I know Tisha, you're right."
(Then, I ((childishly)) make faces at myself behind my back. Because I don't have to like it.)

At least I have some cute new pants.