Family photo 2013

Family photo 2013

Friday, October 05, 2012

Losing Myself, Finding My Pen

So, I entered a writing contest on this site.

The requirements were that every submitted piece have the phrase "you didn't write that" in it, that it contain between 150-200 words, and ideally that it would relate why the author feels compelled to spend their time and energy writing. Fun, right?

It would mean so much to me if you wouldn't mind taking a moment to head over and read my entry, found here. At 200 words, it's bound to be a quick read! Even better, if you would like to leave feedback on the site which might help persuade the judges to vote in my favor. {wink}

I feel the urge to tell my husband not to take it all too seriously when he reads this kind of thing that I've written. Lest he draw the wrong impression and mistakenly believe I am at all displeased with my  lot.

This very morning, the kids are working on their math, I am chatting with you, pumpkin flesh grown in our garden is steaming on the stove while the seeds roast in the oven. Later, we will have pumpkin pie. I relinquish myself wholly to domesticity and children and my husband and my home and my life. Gladly. I fully embrace this place I have had the privilege to choose, and humbly accept my good fortune.  I mean, seriously. You ALL know by now, I would love NOTHING more than to add ANOTHER child to our family. Um, yes. Yes you do. :)

But many of us who are mothers, whether we work outside the home or not, will relate to the feeling, seated deep in our souls, that there are pieces of ourselves that die as our children are coming into life. There is simply not sufficient time to nurture our own interests or drive our own pursuits the way we might otherwise. Sacrifices are to be made. I have often felt that as they increase, I decrease.

Motherhood is my greatest joy.
It is also my greatest challenge.
Through it, I am fulfilled.
And I am depleted.
I have found my place in this world.
And I have lost touch with parts of myself.
Children are by nature, largely takers.
They look to me to be their giver.

It's all of that and more.

I hope you enjoy. :)

The way the kids requested their pumpkin seeds:
Extra crunchy! 

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