Family photo 2013

Family photo 2013

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

My thoughts exactly

If you have adopted, or are in the process of adopting, or are thinking about adopting, or have ever considered adoption, or would like to support someone who has adopted, or love someone who is adopting, or know anyone who would like to adopt, or are the grandparents of adopted children, or the friends of parents who have adopted, or have ever heard of adoption, you should really read this. Really.

It brought tears to my eyes. It is my story too.


EM said...

Wow, what a powerful article. I'm glad I read it.

Erika said...

We're waiting for our Embassy pick up date... I like to read your blog because you're honest. Thanks :)

Linnet said...

"I wanted to escape this life we had willingly chosen, which made the guilt even greater."

so true. There's a tremendous amount of guilt over the desire to escape and pressure to keep quiet about the struggles...after all, we advocated and raised over 35,000.00 from friends and community for our little girl-so how would this regret, incompetence, and grief I feel (and brought on myself)appear? I've cried "I used to be a good mom" many times over since July, when we brought our daughter home. There's a poem I memorized in high school..and I can't remember it all, but a line keeps coming to mind. The poem's called "Wait" and the line goes something like..."Wait, you say indignant reply. I need to know answers; I need to know why. Is your hand shortened or have you not heard? something something something-I'm claiming your Word." I'm feeling a bit indignant myself right now. I wanted so badly to be a good mom to both my daughters. But for now I'm failing.

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